~kaseidei

a lot of stuff had happened in the past few days. but right now i'm just trying to stay positive to compensate for all the negative things that have happened.

i haven't been online because my mom's friends started calling her and so she's been using the computer more than i do. she's been leaving the house at night and come back home at 2 or 3 in the morning. my dad puts out all his anger at me and my brother since we don't know where the hell she goes. but she's happy with her friends, so i just try to be patient. and when i said that my dad is over protective, it's just not on his kids, but with mom too. it's kinda hard to cope with all these things since they happen almost instantaneously. kinda like images in your head that disappear as quickly as they appear. it's just really hard to adjust sometimes...

then recently, one of my grandmothers died.. i barely know her but i just can't help but feel sad. i asked my dad why she died but he doesn't want to talk about it as much as mom. we went to her burial just recently. i didn't even get the chance to see her because we arrived a little late. i just got the chance to throw the flowers.. it's just odd how the people there barely felt sad or something like that. maybe that's what i got from the father's side of my family. no matter what bad things happen, we still smile and look forward to what fate will bring us next. after all, i know that in my grandmother's heart, she doesn't want us to be sad that she left.. because she'll be going to a better place anyway.. i hope God takes care of her..

what a rough vacation this is.. at least the hongkong shopping spree thing didn't get canceled. it just got postponed. papa has a lot of work to finish so he can't abandon the office this month. hopefully, i'll have the chance to refresh and get rid of the negative energy and stuff like that.

school's getting near. i know nobody wants their vacation to end yet, but education is still important somehow ^^